Surrender & Shift

Blogs are time sensitive and my website and all its pages were down for two whole days. I didn't know it until after I had written and tried to publish my post for July 10th, ironically about showing up as we are.

Technology, some glitch in the matrix that changed the namerservers, the DNS record, things I don't really understand but make this whole darn web run caused the issue. It took multiple attempts to solve it, helpdesk, chat support bots, watching and waiting for the DNS servers to update. When I woke this morning it was back up, as if nothing had shifted.

But I had shifted. When I wrote Wednesday morning I was feeling pretty raw and rough. So when the site went down and I knew I wouldn't have the time to troubleshoot it until hours later after client sessions I had to surrender. Nothing I could do but wait.

That would be the lesson, with each support email and log in and rebooting and refreshing, I had to just wait. So instead of worrying and fretting about it endlessly, I surrendered to Time. It wasn't the end of the world. I'd be able to post my Wednesday blog as soon as the site was up and working again.

And I did that this morning (today's Friday), and now there will be two blogs published today, because I am in integrity with being a writer who writes. I committed to writing a blog post three times a week, and I kept this promise to myself and to you, dear reader, who perhaps has been feeling the waves of uncertainty lately as well.

We can only control what's inside of us, and we can only take the steps toward resolving a problem with a clear head and heart for it to be successful most of the time. 

So, even though I was showing up in Wednesday's blog as my authentic self in a lower space, I was also a little protected by the unseen forces of the internet to only release that part of me when I'd returned to neutral, when my head is now much more clear. When I don't want to cry at the drop of a hat, and nothing hurts except a tinge of sore muscles from a great new workout yesterday morning. 

We can still show up as we are. And we can still cocoon up however possible when we need. The feelings will pass, the energy will flow and lift, and we get to show up brave, every day.